-If at first you don't succeed, try not to act surprised...
-Things turn out best for the people who make the best of the way things turn out!
-You can't fix stupid! Period.
-Sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together!
-Attitude is a small thing, but makes a BIG difference!
-Our eyes are placed in front because it is more important to look ahead than to look back.
-Don't play games with a girl who can play BETTER:)
-The average woman would rather have beauty than brains, because the average man can see better than he can think
-The BEST thing about chasing your dreams is... You can have as many as you want, and they can change anytime. Life is ALWAYS going to be full of surprises! In order to WIN the race, you've got to actually be IN the race!
-Our inside jokes, too many to name. When we're apart, it's never the same. When we're together it's nothing but fun. Replacing my girls, just can't be done.
-If she is amazing, she wont be easy. If she is easy, she wont be amazing. If she is worth it, you wont give up. If you give up, you are not worth it!! Period.
-DON'T LIVE BENEATH YOUR PRIVILEDGES!!!
Tuesday, December 28, 2010
Many people are huge advocates for service during the holiday season! Food shelters extend the invite to donate food or time at the local soup kitchen. On the radio we hear countless calls for volunteers to this and that!! While I feel that is all fine and good and love the selfless spirit during the holidays I ask this question... Are the homeless and hungry only homeless and hungry during the holiday season?? ANSWER... Negative!!!! To those who are in the giving spirit I say... Extend that hand of service all throughout the year! I am at fault for this too and I am challenging myself this next year to better my outlook! One of my goals this next New Year can be summed up by one acronym... S.A.S.S!! Sass because I can be quite a sass sometimes but it stands for Simple Acts of Selfless Service!! Pretty sweet eh?! :) But my first mini goal of this big goal is to leave notes!! I am going to go invest in some post-it notes and have them on hand in my car! My plan is to leave a little note on a car of someone [I know] when I happen upon it! It's not going to be an epic novel intricately written, and over complimenting this particular individual (because that takes a LOT of sticky notes and in this economy, ya, no) but because a simple "I love your smile! It's the envy of all the major celeb's! Have a good day, Love Shay" can make your day just as much as a wordy ballod using many great, but not needed adjectives!! Remember the key word here is SIMPLE!!! "Hey nice parking job! Hope work went as smooth as you're moves:) Love Shay" The list goes on!! Start small, think small, but the idea of your thoughtful kindness will forever echo in their lives!!
"Actions speak louder than words" and I tend to prove that!!
Saturday, November 27, 2010
I am so grateful for my family! I am so blessed to be a part of this family!! They have supported me in everything that I have done. I can honestly say that I am the person I am today because of them! They are simply AMAZING!!!
I freakin LOVE my siblings!! They are the best ever!! Both of them are my biggest hero's because they are both so different and neither are afraid to be who they are!! My sister is like thee coolest rocker chick I know and she can play and she's beautiful. My brother is a stud, he does his own thing and he could kick my butt now but he won't cause he's a what we call a gentle giant! I LOVE YOU BRO and SIS!!
My parents!! Words cannot express how much they mean to me!! They have done so... much for me that there is no way I can ever repay them!! They've done their jobs right! I'm awesome hahaha just kidding! But really they are always there for me, they always know what to do or say to help me, and they always let me know what's what!! I'm honestly who I am because of them and I LOVE THEM and I am so blessed to have them as parents!!I am grateful for good roommates!! I am so glad that I got to know Kristin, because she has been a HUGE influence in my life!! I love these girls and am so grateful for the opportunity to live with these 2 wonderful girls!
I am so grateful for this girl right here!! She is the best friend I could ever ask for!! She is ALWAYS there for me!! She not only says it but she proves it!! Right now at this time in my life, I need her, and she's like awesome at keeping my already self-confident attitude high, she makes me more cocky in a way haha! She's crazy, I love her because she's crazy and ever since we've met she's made me feel like the greatest friend in the world! She's a great example to me and she's always ALWAYS there!! She is thee BEST:)
I am sooooooooooooo............ grateful for these ladies!! Without them I could NOT do my calling!! They do everything, they help with everything, they say everything, and they are hands down thee most amazing ladies I have ever met and I could not ask for a better presidency!!
I am so so so grateful for my health and for sports and my ability to play sports!! I love basketball and I love that I have 2 arms, and 2 legs that allow me to have fun and play these sports!
I am grateful for a beautiful fall day! The kind of day that makes you sit back and say "life is good" I am happy, my life is simply busy, but good, and I have wonderful people around me that make everyday that much better!!
I'm grateful for my job and the fact that I have a monetary income in this economy!!
I'm grateful for my car! I LOVE MY CAR!!
I'm grateful for technology that allows me to communicate with those who are most important to me and allows me to stay in contact with everyone!
I am so very grateful to be a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints! I am grateful for the knowledge that I have! I am so thankful for the tender mercies of the Lord that make me smile even on the hardest of days!! I know that by having the gospel in my life and the spirit of the lord I'll be able to get through all things:)
Thursday, October 28, 2010
"Why are men the way that they are?"
I wonder why guys never ask girls out. Are they afraid of rejection? Are they too shy? Are they cheap and feel dates are a waste of money? Are they scared? I've realized that the answer to all these questions is YES!!! My response to that is, SO WHAT!!! So what if the girl rejects you, she obviously isn't worth it cause she wouldn't give you the decency to go with you on a date. So what if you are too shy, girls find that cute and most of the time can pick up the non-verbal hints that you are giving. So what if you are cheap, there are numerous dates you can do that are cheap or even better FREE. Most girls (by most I don't mean all) will have fun no matter what you do! So what if you are scared, everyone is! Want to know a little secret boys???.... Girls are just as afraid and shy and scared and cheap as you are!! We understand!! We really do! We just wish that you would just try!! TRY!! In this world today guys don't even try!! They expect us to just go up and say hey I like you let's date... NO!! What happened to the chivalry? What happened to the men that actually tried? Don't get me wrong, I think it's great that girls are more strong and willing to ask guys out these days! But if you like us SHOW US!! Actions speak louder than words! I am tired... tired of trying and getting no where... tired of the only guys showing interest in me being creeps and scum bags... tired of guys not trying... tired of feeling intimidating! It's like this one saying... Girls are more beautiful then they are smart because they know the average man looks before he thinks! I am tired of all the guys going for the ditsy bimbos while there are just as beautiful girls out there who have brains who are just as willing to love but aren't annoying!! Anyways I don't know what sparked that ranting!! I guess I am feeling the heartache!! The feeling that the guy who you are meant to be with is dating the wrong girl. Or that all you good friends are settling for annoying girls but think of them as a "trophy girlfriend/wife" mostly a selfish arm candy!! I am looking for a guy who will love me for me... for all the goofiness, tallness, randomness, and the fact that I have a brain and use it! I want a guy who loves me more than life it's self! Cause when I find him, HE WILL BE MY EVERYTHING... and I better be his!! I've been holding out for the right man for me, and I hope all this heart ache will be worth it! As women, "we are looking for a few good men" So back it up army, we need them more ha ha!!
Here are the quotes that got me thinking this way...
"I hate it when you can't stop thinking about that one person...and deep down inside you know they probably haven't thought about you once"
"Dear Tummy, sorry for all the butterflies. Dear Pillow, sorry for all the tears. Dear Heart, sorry for all the damage. Dear Brain, you were right"
That last one is SO... true to my life!!!!
Gotta love quotes!! Gotta love boys!
Just a food for thought for all you single ladies!!
Thursday, October 21, 2010
"Hey Shay would you be able to meet with Bishop Jensen tomorrow at 10:30?" I thought to myself... Um okay why do I need to meet with the Bishop, I already have a calling, they called me to be the Relief Society 4th Sunday teacher just the week before. My response to the text at like 1:12am in the morning...
"Sorry for the late response I left my phone at home, but yes I can meet with the bishop at 10:30."
To my surprise they responded at this late hour with "Sounds good".
I then proceeded to walk into the living room and tell my roommate Kristin that I had to meet with the Bishop in the morning so I would have to drive separately to church! She's was all "Don't you already have a calling?"
Yes, Yes I do you're just as clueless as I am as to the reasoning behind this mystery meeting.
Sunday morning come and I get to the church and I am sitting there waiting for the Bishop. They door opens and a mass of men come out of the office. Probably a meeting with the elders quorum presidency because I knew the men coming out were in it! The elder quorum president came up and shook my hand saying,
"Hey Shay how are you doing?" HUH?!?! How did he know my name! Quick back track... the week before when I had just gotten to church one of the guys from the elders quorum presidency opened the door for me and my roommate Britt and I as I said thank you to him, he said...
"you're welcome Shay" How do all these guys know my name?!? Of all the many people in our ward how do they already know my name!! Kinda weird! But anyway moving on with the story! So I then walked into the Bishop's office and Bishop Jensen was all smiles and so happy to see me while I still remained in the dark as to why I was there! He said...
"You're probably wondering why you're here" and I responded...
"I figured cause you just wanted to see my smiling face and you enjoy my awesome personality"... that got him going he thought it was so funny!!
"I do love your personality", he said. Well little did I know that they had another calling for me!! And by "another" calling I mean a NEW one!
"The reason I brought you here on such short notice is because we want you to be the new Relief Society President." he said nonchalantly. I honestly probably looked like a deer in the headlights! I was all...
"well I wasn't expecting that!" ha ha! Bishop then went on to tell me that he had this feeling it was me and talked to his counselors and the former R.S President and they all think the world of me and that further confirmed it for him and that's how I ended up there that morning!!
"Do you accept the calling, Shay?".... still thrown back I said...
"Of course, I'll do it, and I'll try my best!" He was so excited and said
"You are who God wants right now and with your outgoing personality I KNOW without a doubt in my mind that you'll do great!!"
I walked out of Bishop's office still in shock about what just happened... if it just happened... and then as I went to sacrament it hit me! I am now over ALL the girls in my ward! I am going be the on they look up to! I am the one responsible for them! I was all of the sudden so overwhelmed with feelings of excitement, nervousness, stress, and oddly LOVE, a new found love for every single girl in my ward. I don't know all of them, in fact I don't know most of them, but I have this love for them. I want to reach out to them, make them feel welcome, befriend them, and I want to give them ALL callings so they feel needed and important! Because to me they are all important! I feel so overwhelmed, but I know that Heavenly Father has given me this love for them! I am His tool in reaching out to these girls! I hope I do what's best for them, I hope I do what He wants me to do! I know I can't do it alone... I am definitely in some uncharted waters here folks... BUT I know I have help, I have the Bishop and his counselors, I have Sister Bergensen (who is AMAZING, I freakin love her), I have my mom (who has gotten me through many, many countless trials in my life), I'll have a Presidency (who will help me in all aspects), and I have a loving Father in Heaven who needs me and I need Him!
I know if I have a good attitude towards this that miracles will happen! I KNOW that to be a fact! I may feel like a deer in the headlights, and feel totally inadequate for this calling, but that's what's gonna make this fun! It's like I told my friend the other night... "Life is 10% what HAPPENS to you, and 90% how you DEAL with it. You can either be happy or sad, but either way life is gonna happen." So make the best of what you have, laugh at the stupid things, and know that life is good, it always has been good, sometimes you just lose sight of it.
Thursday, October 7, 2010
Let me just tell you about that adventurous weekend. It starts out with a month or so before my friend Chantel Olsen the pretty blonde in pink called and was all... "Hey you haven't been to conference before right?! Would you like to go, I have tickets?!" Of course I said yes (I may be blonde, but I ain't dumb) haha! SO for a whole month I was counting down the days and weeks until I could go up north to conference!! Well that day finally came and we all loaded up the CR-V and drove northward! I must say I just love being up in the 801... it's fun, it's hoppin, it's exciting, it's big, it's busy, and it's close to some really good friends!! I had a BLAST that weekend!! I found that the 7/11 in Provo is a happening place on a Friday night! I learned that when you take an old Crown Vic and run her without the engine being on causes her to act up and not start or reverse! :) I became well aware of the fact that it's cooler up there!! Jumping/getting thrusted out of a moving vehicle is DANGEROUS, but funny once my knees healed. Salt Lake is huge and fun/scary to drive in. I definitely found that the 35 some odd acres that the church owns in the center of Salt Lake is by far thee most beautiful place I have ever seen. I am amazed at the progress the church has made in the past 100 some odd years. I ALSO CANNOT BELIEVE the pathetic protesters that don't have a life and find the time to just waste away their lives in front of the conference center. I laughed as we walked by one guy as we were leaving and he said... "the Book of Mormon God is a racist God!" I was like really dude?! Just open your eyes and look around at the mass of people walking around... you have Polynesians, Africans, Latinos, middle easterners, Europeans, Australians, Antaricans, Canadians and everything in between who just walked out of Our CHURCH's (the ones who believe in this Book of Mormon God) conference... and... It was so moving to see that we were all different and diverse and beautiful AND all members of the same faith!! PLEASE GET a LIFE sir!! I also learned that the conference center is MASSIVE!! It is absolutely huge!! Ginormous!! It was sooo... much fun! I had a blast and enjoyed every second of that weekend!! Thank you Chantel for inviting me! I know you could have invited a number of other people, but I am grateful I was one of those people! Thanks Kristin, Brittany and Pierie for being there with me for my "first time". I haven't been to Temple Square either until this weekend!! I know shocker, I mean that's crazy every one's been to temple square!! "You don't deserve the right to call yourself Mormon!!" Heck yes I can!! I've been to Temple Square now!! Booyah!! And thanks to Zant for coming even though he was late, and almost lost his seat! He definitely made up for it!! All in all a..... GREAT/HYSTERICAL/MOVING/EPIC/ADVENTUROUS/BEAUTIFUL/GRANDIOSE weekend!!
Big Chair in Beaver ^
Halloween store in the University mall
Sunday, September 19, 2010
I won't lie to you, I hate school. I love school at the same time. I hate it because it's hard, and it's painful. I love it because it means I am educated, and it means that I am making something of myself. Right now I am tired. Tired of going to school, tired of homework, tired of trying. But doing this simple thing as "applying for graduation" has changed my attitude. I feel like, "I can do this" I can finish school, I can live my dreams, I can work in the medical field. Granted it was a royal pain in the buttocks, and some nights I just wanted to give up and say heck with it, my parents didn't graduate college and they're living a great life, but I wanna do more, I wanna go further, I wanna see how far I can go in life. Plus in this day and age an Associates degree is equivalent to a high school diploma, so I need it!!
So I am approaching the finish line of one major goal in my life and it feels SO GOOD!! And I couldn't have done it without my parents, cause they have such high goals for me and know what I can achieve and I hope to never let them, or myself down. Most important of all I have to thank my Father in Heaven for the trials that made me stronger, the tender mercies that got me through each day, for helping me through each class, each test, and each study session... and for all the many new friends I met and the experiences that came with them. Life is good, it always has been good, and it will always be good... as long as I keep my optimistic attitude and keep moving forward no matter what!!!
Thursday, August 26, 2010
-We do not remember days, we remember MOMENTS. The richnes of life lies in memories we haven't forgotten.-
-A hug is worth a thousand words. A friend is worth more-
-A friend is someone who is there for you when he'd rather be anywhere else-
-Yesterday is but today's memory, and tomorrow is today's dream.-
- Live life to the FULLEST-
-Memories are the diary that we carry about with us-
Sunday, August 22, 2010
Tomorrow marks the death of Summer 2010. For tomorrow is the first day of school. This sentence used to bring such joy to me when I was a wee young lass... But alas it doesn't have that effect on me anymore. Why you ask?!? Well to put it quite frankly I am burned out!! I feel like I've been going to school my whole life... OH WAIT, I HAVE!!
Summer of 2010 was a very welcome and necessary break for me! I had a blast. I started off summer by moving into a new place with new roommates. Traveled to the exotic locations of Grace, Idaho (population 306 that includes the bovines) for a wedding. Ventured to the lake many, many, many times. Attempted to wakeboard, Failed! Then attempted again and got up but couldn't stay up!! Third times a charm cause I got up and haven't looked back since. In FACT wakeboarding is my new favorite!! I LOVE IT!! If I accomplish nothing else in life... I'll die happy accomplishing this one thing!! Tried my hand at jetskiiing!! That right there is God's greatest gift to mankind!! It's like a four-wheeler on water, BOMB!! Went swimming everyday I could, many times right before work. Soaked up some summer sun... Got the new nickname of the Blonde Mexican. BBQ'ed it up like all the meat known to mankind was in my freezer and I needed to get rid of it. Stayed up late, and slept in late! Day in and day out I ventured into the Lobster to work! I love my job! Do I love all of my employees?!? YOU BET I DO!! ha ha. I went camping, I got tan, I had adventures, I made memories, and I lived up every single summer day. But the saying reigns true... Time flys when you're having fun. AND IT DID!! School starts tomorrow, I'm ready physically I got my books, and notebooks, and pens, and my trusty backpack. But I'm not ready mentally!! I have this one semester left and I'll have my associates, but at the same time I don't wanna start! It's bittersweet cause I'll be done, but I don't wanna do these last few classes to get done!! Don't you just love life?!? Cause I sure do!!
Sunday, July 25, 2010
What do I love more than summer sun?!? SUMMER ACTIVITIES duh!!! Well this post is a tribute to summer! Summer 2010 to be exact!! We are approaching August and that means school, BOO!! But I'm excited at the same time cause I am inches away from getting my associates! I don't want it all to end quite yet, because I have been having a freakin blast this summer and I wanted to share with you guys some of the various activities that I have done this summer.
As a college student I have found many, many, MANY ways to have fun while staying cheap or in even better cases FREE!! That's right free.99!! Me and my ladies made a Summer 2010 "Bucket List" while I don't remember everything from that list, I'll try my best at remembering everything.
1- Massive Slip-n-slide... super fun and we did one last year. We got the idea from a Smirnoff commercial ha ha... But alas no alcohol was involved in our slip-n-slide just huge tarps, a hill, soap, and friends. Total costs... $8.00 each for three 80"x 25' plastic tarps, $1.00 for soap, $0.00 for the hill.
2-NCMO... for those of you who do not know what this is, it is a, Non-Commitment Make Out... I will be honest I had never heard of this abbreviation until my freshman year of college! Naiveness aside, this activity is way fun depending on the person you're making out with. Keep it PG people. Total costs... $0.00, might cost you, your dignity if you are the kiss and tell type perosn.
3-Sleep out on the tramp... as the picture depicts here, we are sleeping out on my trampoline at my parents house in Hurricane! This task is best executed in late summer as to not freeze your acetabulem (butt) off (learned from multiple bad experiences). Total costs... $0.00 for those who already have a trampoline, $1.06 for a drink from Maverick (optional), $2.22 for 2 bags of candy (also optional.
4-Sneak onto a golf course and sleep on it... this one has yet to be executed. Total cost... $0.00 if you're not caught or the cop is being nice.
5-Dare NIGHT!!.. We did this the other night actually. What you do is get a group of people and split them into groups of 2. Each group comes up with dares and then we exchange them. The team to get their dares done first wins! It's thee most fun thing you can do with a group of people. Some of the dares included kissing 5 random strangers. Wash your hair in the fountain on campus at school. Run frantically through Denny's screaming FIRE!! Pretty much anything that is ridiculous or completely out of the ordinary is the object of all the dares... feel free to use this idea that my friend Chantel came up with. I guarantee endless laughs, and embarrassment, but all worth the memories!! Total costs... $5.00 max for gas driving around to various places, $0.00 for your dignity.
6-Lake Day... While we execute this often, we still found it a must to put on the list. One example is the other day we went to the lake and jet skied. ABSOLUTELY MY NEW FAVE!! I was a bit grandma-ish starting off but with one round of being "broken in" by my roommate Kristin on the jet ski, I got the idea and now I'm crazy on it!! After 5 or 6 hours at the lake we headed to the river to try our hand at skim boarding... this is also way fun!! Then after we returned to my house for a BBQ... All in all an amazingly priceless summers day!!! Total costs... $20.00 for gas, $11.00 for hamburger, buns, lettuce, tomatoes, and an onion for the BBQ.
7- CALIFORNIA... I have yet to get there but I'll work something out... don't ya'll worry!! Total costs... $75.00 for gas (price based off my cars gas mileage), $50.00 for food, $0.00 for lodging because you have relatives down there.
8-Camping... still hasn't been crossed off!! I am so stoked to do this one! I freakin love camping, just something about it... roughing it outdoors that makes it fun. Everyone looks and smells like crap but yet we are all still having fun! Total costs... $5.00 for s'more essentials, $1.06 for drink from Maverick, $1.96 for a bag of Starbursts (so tasty when roasted) $0.00 for camping supplies because you jack your families stuff.
9- BONFIRE... while we usually leave this one up the expert also known as Caleb Capel aka Dirty... he recently got married and has yet to have one so we took matters into our own hands. We had one ceremonial fire, where we burned books from the last semester along with a tampered rocking chair. We had another were we burned a massive stack of phone books... that fire was pretty fun actually... we had a good turn out at that fire! Fun times were had by all!!! Total costs... $0.00, already have things to burn and already have matches, $1.06 for a drink from Maverick.
10- Skinny Dipping... this is a classic past time of all!! Yes I've done it a few times... The thrill of getting caught is the best part of it!! Total costs... $0.00 this one is totally FREE!
11-Caving... In the St. George area there is this cave out in the Snow Canyon State Park that is commonly used for glow stick caving. The idea is to take a group of people, some glow sticks and go into the cave. Once in the cave you break the glow sticks, splatter them on yourself and the cave then play hide-n-seek... it's so cool to shut your eyes, have everyone hide, and then open them and you see no one and it feels like you are in the cave all by yourself!! SO FUN!! Total costs... $7.00 for glow sticks, $0.86 for a pack of gum.
12-Pool Hop... Being the offspring of my dad, I feel the necessary competitive nature to out do my dad. My dad also went to Dixie State and one of the things he did was pool hopped down the boulevard and hit every single hotel on that street. The goal is to just get in each pool. I have yet to do this... BUT in my defense we pool hop at "rapist inn" every time we wanna go hot tubbing. Total costs... $0.00 as long as you don't get caught and fined.
13-Soap the fountain at DSC... this is another attempt to out do my dad!! Total costs... $1.00 for soap from DollarTree.
All these things and more can be done on a little, or no budget! Remember I am NOT responsible if you get caught and/or fined for attempting some of these activities. The best part of all these activities is the lasting memories you'll accumulate. Even if you get caught the fun you had while doing it will always be worth it. Check list is as follows: spontaneousness-check, willingness-check, excitement/thrill factor- double check, Living up a warm/fun summers day with friends-PRICELESS!!!
My biggest goal in life is to simply... LIVE LIFE!!! I wanna experience things, do things, and try things that I've never done before! When I am 80 years old and I am looking back on my life, I wanna be able to say, "yeah I did that!" I wanna laugh and smile at EVERY single memory in my life... the good, the bad, the embarrassing, the depressing, the sporadic, and even the scary memories of my life. I want to have a full life, an experienced life. Cause life wasn't meant to be endured, it was meant to be ENJOYED!! So here's to Summer 2010 and to all the summers to come!!
Wednesday, June 23, 2010
Wednesday, June 9, 2010
I've come to the realization that life sucks!! Yes, it constantly likes to slap me in the face with wonderful things that make my life more stressful. This could also be God's way of humbling my naturally self-confident personality. My poor roommates have dealt with recent blow-ups. You see everyone, I, Shay Harvey have what the personality color-code defines as a "yellow": the life of the party, the one who is always happy, the social bug, optimistic, and positive person. Those of you who do know me, realize this is spot on. But I am also a "white" I hold things back and put on a happy face to cover up what pain I am feeling. As of recently I have had serious issues with what I want. LIFE... this little four-lettered word though simply spelled is the most diverse, broad, impacting, stressful, lovable, responsible, alternating, comical, and hated word in the English language. At this particular point in my life, this word (life) can be trumped with another word, LAUGH!
I look back on my life and wish I could go back to the time where my biggest worry was something little like who I was going to hang out with. Now everything is a constant worry, rent, my car, gas, work, school, getting enough hours at work, groceries, and most recently guys! I've always had self confidence issues when it came to the opposite sex. Why you ask? Well my whole life I have been the tallest, and the biggest girl. I've lived feeling like I was a man, and other peoples blunt comments don't help me at all. This plays a major impact on what kind of guy I am looking for as a boyfriend or potential spouse. I am looking for someone taller (of course), broader, athletic, smart, easy-going, and most importantly FUNNY! Since I've been at college I have gone on various dates with very different guys. I've learned that looks aren't everything, and that a somewhat cute guy can become hot with an awesome personality. I also learned that though you may like him, that doesn't mean he knows that. Life isn't like a movie, it's real and guys don't just happen. If I want something to happen, I NEED TO DO IT! So I did, I have asked guys on dates. I have stepped out of my comfort zone to do something I don't normally do. I have found that guys are just as scared as girls at asking people out. Though I have stepped out of my comfort zone, and took the initiative NOTHING has worked out for me. I have learned that I am awful at reading "signs" and even better, I have learned I am awful at giving "signs". I recently have been doing some serious limbo with this one guy, and in the end I have just decided that he doesn't like me and I would rather keep him as a friend then tell him how I feel. This realization led to what my roommates have witnessed as a blow-up! So.. Self, as of now our goal is to "do me". Don't worry about anyone else and focus on what is important in SHAY'S life. Get your priorities straight and stop worrying about guys and responsibilities cause life only gets harder. For now I am just going to LAUGH at everything I've been through and remind myself that LIFE IS GOOD!!
Wednesday, May 26, 2010
Tomorrow marks my two year anniversary since I graduated high school. It's weird to look back and think about high school. I had so much fun the crazy stuff I did, yet still do and all the friends I had, the ones I still have. High school was a blast and I freakin miss it, but at the same time I don't miss it that much... It's like Trace Atkins song... You're gonna miss this... I DO!!! I miss playing basketball, everything about it: yes even the conditioning... I miss Dairy Queen being the hang out place after games... I miss the spill-way talks (only in Hurricane)... I even miss getting caught by the cops during battle of sexes week... I miss the assemblies... I miss designing pages for the yearbook... I miss getting out of class for yearbook... I miss skipping class and going to SnoKaps... I miss getting ready for the games... I miss the school spirit... I miss the red lockers that line the halls... I miss the smell of teachers classrooms after lunch... I somewhat miss the teachers... I miss the office ladies, we got really tight my senior year... I miss the counciling center and how it was THEE place to hangout during class for seniors... I miss the Tiger pride... I miss the random butt slaps from people cause apparently it was easier to reach that then my hand... I MISS IT, but I love the memories and the I LOVE THE NEW ONES!!
Tomorrow my little brother KELLEN graduates High School. I cannot believe he is so grown up. Seems just like the other day I was helping him in his kindergarten class cause they didn't know how to handle him. My brother is awesome. I am so proud of him it's unreal. His whole life he has proven time and TIME AGAIN that he can do everything and more than what was expected of him. He is amazing, he got through school like it was nothing, though some nights it seemed like the world was going to end cause he had so much homework and what not. He has gone so far and will continue to go far. THANKS to his peer aides who got to know and love him, to his fellow students for accepting him as he is and dodging him as he prances around the school, to his resource teachers and aides who helped him make it through each day, TO MY MOM for having endless patience and to help him with EVERY homework assignment, EVERY project, EVERY test, and EVERY quiz... he is the person he is today because she has patience with him... to my DAD for loving him, understanding him, being patient, and making him feel important, even though Kellen is bigger and could easily take dad out now:) To DACEY for being a great little sister and sticking up for him at school, cause we all know how teenagers and kids can be... To everyone else who tried to make him feel welcome and who tried to get to know him! He's complex and has the attention span of a squirrel, if you don't catch his attention at first, then he's gone!! To Kellen Ron Harvey: for understanding himself, being himself, trying his best, doing his best, loving all he meets, most all kudos for being the most caring, forgiving, strong, and loving person I KNOW... I can honestly say having you as a brother has made me the person I am today and I wouldn't trade you for anything in the world... Congrats little BIG bro, on graduating High School... You made it and I couldn't be more proud!!